A memoir about an illicit love affair that the reader comes to realize is different than the author confesses. Alfred Buber is a pillar of his community, a respected man with a secret, and a
secret life, until one day the two cross over and even he can no longer tell which is real and which is not. Buber's passion for women is matched only by his inability to relate to them, and
after years of bruising attempts to find love he seeks his escape in an illegitimate all encompassing romance with a Bangkok bargirl.